Living Day to Day

I haven’t been able to update as much since the last post. Work and martial arts have been preoccupying my time. I come home from a long day, tired, hungry and aching to go to bed. What I noticed is that if I get around eight hours of sleep my mood is generally better.

I do have a problem though, It’s really simple. I’m living day by day. What that means is that I’m not working on my goals. By not working on my goals I’m not improving. By not improving I’m going in a circle. By going in circle I’m not changing or shaping the life that I always desired. Everyday feels the same. It felt like I’m reliving the same bullshit over and over. I try to do new things but change is scary. I feel as if I’m being held back from greatness.

There were some changes throughout this week. For example I went to my Muay Thai gym. I’ve been slacking on that, unmotivated to go. I finally went back and worked out on my own. Working on the basics and doing body weight training. That was something great and new.

I’ve been slacking on my goals that I made from January. It’s already the end of February and what have I accomplished? Nothing. I feel like I haven’t accomplished much. The only thing that I can say proudly that I have done was work towards my future physique. Dieting and exercising has been going well and I noticed the change when I look in the mirror. Other than that, nothing. I have to adjust my goals and slowly work on them. The one thing I definitely need to do is ¬†start small and build discipline.

 

 

Trying When You’re Sick

I felt a lot better today than yesterday, obviously. I slept and woke up in the middle of the night feeling hot and cold. It was rough being in that grey area. I took some Advil and headed off to the gym. I wanted to skip the gym but I forced myself to go. I didn’t do my normal workout routine. I did Chest/Triceps today, I didn’t go heavy but I got a good workout in.

After getting ready I went into the city and try to approach women. My approach anxiety ¬†was getting the best of me. On top of that my voice was cracked and low. I couldn’t speak that well but I tired anyway. So far today was decent. I got a few approaches in but it wasn’t great. Throughout the day I started to feel fatigue and light headed. I ate, drank a ton of vitamin water zero and called it quits.

Overall today wasn’t bad, at least I did a few approaches even though it was bad. I’m slowly getting myself used to going out and meeting women. Approaching and meeting women is hard but if I get good at this it will carry over into my other parts of my life. It’s hard for a reason, if anyone could do it then it wouldn’t be worthwhile.